And despite what my critics say it was not for attention. I was living in New York, if you could call it that. More like isolated in New York. My friends for the most part were out west. I was involved with the guy whom I named before who for the most part, wouldn’t let me talk to anyone. If we went out he’d basically expect me to look at the floor all night. If someone had a conversation with me,( of course since I had worked in porn) I was trying to fuck them! Even though most of the friends he had that I met though him were 19 years old, on drugs, or thugs from Hunt’s Point. I never left my apartment, and I let myself go physically almost to prove to him that I wasn’t going to do anything. It was killing my sanity and I had no one to talk to. I had Internet though. I found that when I was on my Twitter page talking about what was going on, I felt better. Then I looked at the WordPress site and found it was as easy to blog as it was to use any social network site. I started this blog and started to write about my experiences and things that were interesting to me. I didn’t think that people would actually read it. It still boggles my mind how many people read this blog, sometimes as many as 500 a day(not every day, of course, but still a lot.)
I’ve learned a few things from this whole experience:
I love mainstream stories more than porn, but my stories about porn get the most hits.
Women outside of porn will hate me no matter how nice I am and how many years have gone by since my last movie. This is particularly true among women in there 40s and soccer mom types. They can sum up any reason to say I’m a bad or stupid person by some “you did porn” argument.
Andrew Parker is more popular to read about and gets more Google hits and readers than Noel Ashman. Both lose to Richard Brill though, who was one of my most popular entrys. (RIP Richard) Noel Ashman googles himself a lot though from what I’ve noticed on my WordPress dashbord.
It’s been a great first year for writing this and I can see myself continuing to do so for a long time. I would encourage others in the business to do so as well. It’s as easy as Twitter, Facebook or any social network site