I think it’s time I bring this up.

August 30, 2010 at 1:40 pm (eating disorders, Health, Heather Pink, Las Vegas, New York, personal, phlladelphia, Travel, Uncategorized)

I have been in Philadelphia in a program for my weight since the end of June. I became stressed out, depressed and sick. I had someone in my life who were telling me I was physically unattractive and not significant. They would go through the list of  girls that were “better than me”  I even heard that Samantha Ronson was better looking than me!  I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa.  The experts that I speak to on a regular basis says this person was most likely a contributing factor in this, even though the tendencies may have been there longer.  I am furious with this person and how they treated me.  They say I have every right to be.

I was hospitalized 9 times this year due to electrolyte imbalances, blackouts, internal organ problems, and malnutrition.  It is very difficult to enter a program, even with insurance.  Most insurances will cover for drug and chemical dependency, but not eating disorders.  Plus, it is not even legal for programs to recommend an insurance company that may cover.  It took me 6 months for me to get excepted by one.  By the time I was excepted, this person had left, saying, “I don’t care what happens to you.”   I would never put someone else through that and be able to sleep at night.  It felt like I had nothing left.

I entered this world renown program on June 28, 2010.  I weighed 80 pounds, which dropped to 78 pounds within a few days.  I was examined by internist who ruled that by body could no longer absorb food or the medications.  I would have  died.  I was hospitalized for yet another month, on IVs, and later on a feeding tube.  I would have to eat one food a day until my body could produce digestive emzymes starting with rice, then baby food, (the fruit ones were actually good) eventually I was able to eat most things and my weight went up. 

As of today I am making arrangements to leave the program on September 17th.  On Tuesday I will be looking into another program part-time in Las Vegas, which was one of the cities I was looking into moving to anyway.  I just want to make sure I continue to do well.  I have no idea how much I weigh and am not sure I want to know,( although I miss my Hello Kitty scale, heeheehee)

It is very dificult for me to go public with this, go easy on me.

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10 Comments

  1. j a wellington said,

    good luck. you sound like you have made a lot of progress.

  2. john said,

    you’re such a sweet beautiful girl

  3. frmsthjrsy said,

    I hope you can free yourself from the losers in your life. You are a beautiful, kind and thoughtful woman, and I know that you will recover from this. Stay positive!

  4. N.Lockye said,

    OMG!! You are ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL!!! You need to stay away from dirtballs like that!! I am glad to hear you have gained weight and are getting better. Stay positive, and most importantly, stay around positive people!!!! Keep your chin up!

  5. Mental Disorders 101 said,

    I think it?s time I bring this up….

    I found your entry interesting do I’ve added a Trackback to it on my weblog :)…

  6. Guy William III said,

    Heather… I am going to be sending you a message, but I want you to know this: You are important. You are beautiful. You are in a dark place (which I am familiar with) and I am glad that you are starting to get your life back. You are an amazing person. This I know, from messages we shared in the past.

    Be well, my dear. You are loved.

    ~Guy

  7. Mike South said,

    Hi Heather

    All I can say is wow, I had no idea. I been with you in this biz literally since day one. I always thought you to be pretty well balanced, normal and very bright so reading this was unexpected and it broke my heart. I always thought you were extraordinarily pretty, that’s why I asked you to shoot.

    Next time someone is running you down pick up the phone and call me, I will do the opposite.

    Lets re-establish contact, I always liked you, I have some good friends in Vegas who may be able to help ya as well. One has her Masters in psych.

    shoot me an email I will send you my number

    Love You

    Mike South

  8. Eli said,

    Heather: I know it’s hard sometimes to know why we go thru the things we do in life, there IS a reason and a purpose. You have many people out here thinking of you, stay strong. Everything is as it should be.

  9. Willie Williams said,

    Congrats on your courage for posting this and for re-taking control of your life. Best of luck as you continue your journey and I hope our paths cross one of these days. Hit me back on email ot twitter.

  10. JoefromArizonaUSA said,

    <333333333333

    Love&Support!!!

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